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Yesterday I called the number I was given to ask about changing my medicaid plan but got a recording that wouldn't let me talk to a live person. It did refer to a website, but there was something funny about it: .com instead of .gov.

I also went to the library and copied my third score. The first copier was in use by a woman who was copying a cookbook. The second one didn't work; I had to get a librarian to fill out a slip I could take to the cashier to get my dollar back since the coin-op won't give change unless at least one copy is made. Fortunately, a librarian pointed a third copier I hadn't known about. I had to wait an hour for the bus coming back. So, now I have the three scores copied, but I'm having second thoughts about sending them to the person in question.

Once home, I immediately ate a mini cruller and some saltines with cream cheese, since I was very hungry (the library cafetería closes at 1630), but it didn't make me feel much better. Later, I fixed macaroni and cheese with tomato sauce, which did.

Lately, a number of people have been making highly emotional complaints about alleged anti-semitism on livejournal. While I have no doubt there is some, I actually haven't seen it myself (and while we're on the subject, "anti-semitism", in its conventional use is a gross misnomer, another clue that the discussion isn't on rational grounds). All I've seen are some people getting labeled anti-semitic simply for expressing a different viewpoint. Maybe the complainants have had their minds poisoned by the Bible?

My foot is sore for no reason that I can see, unless it's from all the pacing I've been doing.

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Here's an informal undocumented list of buddhists being persecuted, off the top of my head.

* by Brahmins in India (at least one patriarch was killed)
* by Muslims in Central Asia (totally eliminating the buddhists)
* by Taoists and Confucianists in China (numerous times)
* by Shintoists in Japan (and sometimes by other buddhists)

In more recent times, buddhists were:

* expelled from Argentina
* jailed in Israel
* tortured in Iran

I almost forgot: the U.S. bombed buddhist temples in Viet Nam.

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Today, things have gotten very bad for me again.

I just terminated a 7-year friendship, or had it terminated on me, in a very painful way. The person in question was someone I met in my early days on CONLANG. The main reason I joined livejournal in the first place was to comment in her journal more easily (yhlee if you must know). But recently, she and several other people have gone totally insane labeling people who merely express a different viewpoint as being anti-semitic. It looks like mob hysteria. I don't know why this is. Immersion in modern pop culture? The Bible? Failure to conlang? I can't answer, but these are legitimate questions for a Nichiren Buddhist to ask.

She was the person for whom I copied my orchestral scores; now I have nowhere to send them.

In related news, I have a copy of _Science Fiction: The Best of 2002_ edited by Robert Silverberg and Karen Haber and a copy of JUNE 2001 Fantasy & Science Fiction (autographed) available if anyone wants them.

I don't know what will happen in the future with the very few friends that are reading this. All things are transient. I don't want things to end this way and I'm very worried.

I've been agitated most of the day. I actually chanted 10 minutes and that helped, but only with the agitation. This is a test of whether or not I can get by without Lexapro. But I'm not going back.